Storms over Open Fields
The sun hammered down from a cuttingly clear sky, turning airborne pollen and droning insects to glittering specks, the heat sucking rivulets of sweat from my bare shoulders as I ran. Golden grass and packed dirt pounded under my feet, puffs of warm dust coating my legs. I drew lungfuls of hot spring air and leaned into the corner, trying to keep the pace up.
A few steps behind, the big cat in pursuit snarled and coughed. Teeth flashed in the gaping maw, a strand of spittle dangling from the jaw. Claws in the broad toes caught the turf as the long legs flashed, the tail lashing for balance as he drew closer in a burst of speed and then staggered and dropped aside. I turned to see him bending over with hands on knees as he wheezed.
"Rot you," I heard him gasp between breaths. "Enough!"
"Come on," I grinned, jogging in place. "That was only three laps. You did better last time."
Chaeitch hissed something obscene, flagged me away with a disgusted wave, then sprawled out in the shade of the old pine. A bundle of tawny gold almost lost against the summer-burnt grass.
I went to do another two laps of the field. Chaeitch ah Ties. He wasn't human, but he was one of the oldest friends I had; one of the few Rris I felt I could genuinely catalogue as 'friend'. We'd met during my early days in the alien city of Shattered Water, when we'd been thrust together in a working relationship that hadn't been entire amicable. Things had changed. He'd been open-minded toward me and we'd become drinking buddies and someone to talk to. Now, we still worked together, but I'd come to consider him a good friend.
What he considered me was a little more difficult to define. Rris minds don't work like human ones. He acted like a friend, so that's the slot I filed him under.
Rris. What to say about Rris? They're evolved felines, that's a good start. Whereas back home apes had clambered and screeched to sapient ascendancy, here a species of feline had made the same transition. They're superficially similar to lynxes, with the same tufted feline features. But to say they're lynxes is to say that humans are apes. There's a family resemblance, but so much variation.
They have tails: sinewy tufted things that are as much a mirror of their emotions as our faces. They walk on two legs with a springing, toe-balanced gait and while their stamina leaves a bit to be desired, they are capable of amazing bursts of speed that would make a human olympic sprinter want to rethink his career. Their fur and coloration can differ wildly depending on geographical adaptation. And they have needle teeth and razor claws, as the many scars I carry can testify.
They're a sharp people. And here they're people; they're the norm and I'm the exception.
How did I come here?
I haven't the foggiest fucking idea. Whatever happened to me is something so far outside of my experience that I can't guess. Two years ago I was hiking in Vermont and something happened. There was an accident of somekind that I only have the vaguest memories of. When I woke, I was elsewhere. Things snowballed from there.
Two years later I was stripped to the waist in the heat, jogging around one of the fields behind my more-than- adequate house. Chaeitch lounged in the shade under the tree, guzzled water and panted furiously as I pushed myself around the last two laps. He'd joined me on these workouts several times, but he never really seemed to get the point. So he blinked lazily as I eased on down and stretched, sweat rolling over old scars and war wounds, then wandered over to the parallel bar under the tree.
"You've changed a lot," he mused, looking me up and down. I could see his eyes flickering over the network of scars that covered me. "You're bigger than you used to be."
"Huhn," I grinned as I jumped up to catch the polished wooden bar. He was probably right. I never used to be able to do thirty pullups. No cars, TV or other modern amenities really helped you get in shape. "Clean living and being chased by Rris does that to you."
He didn't laugh at that. Oh yeah. My first few months here had been something of a trial. The situation, the demands put on me, the assassination attempts... the world around me had all become too much. I'd cracked. Big time. That was another scar across my wrist. Things had changed for the better. For the most part.
He watched as I repeatedly lifted my chin over the bar. "That's really supposed to be good for you?"
"Uh-huh," I grunted.
He snorted and plucked a strand of grass, gnawed the end. "Looks far too strenuous to be healthy. You're leaking badly. I can smell it already."
I dropped back down. I could have probably done more, but after a certain amount of activity that old wound through my shoulder starts to play up. I flexed the muscle and winced slightly, then wiped sweat from my face and regarded the Rris. About five foot of bipedal feline. Average height for his race. His tawny furred body didn't sweat, except on the pads of the feet and hands, but he did pant like a steam engine in hot weather. He'd stripped his expensive clothes off for that run. Right off. They don't have problems with nudity as even unclothed a Rris tends to be about as naked as an Eskimo in full winter dress. Male genitalia are tucked away in a sheath, like a dog's, and the thicker fur of the belly continues down to the groin. Chaeitch did decorate his hide though. There were little geometric curlicues and sigils shaven into the fur of his chest and shoulders and three small black dyed bands wrapped around each forearm. To my eyes, the lopsided blaize across his left ear was his most distinctive feature.
"Hot for you?" I smiled.
He grinned back, bearing his teeth in a smile that was a mockery of mine. "Wait till winter."
"Touche. At least I can put more clothes on. You'll have to shave to take any more off."
"Then I'd look like you!" He coughed in mock-disgust. "No thank you. I'll suffer."
I laughed. "Would you at least accept a drink?"
"I think that I can manage. I heard rumors about an old Swampy River you received."
"You're well informed."
He lolled his tongue. Or maybe he was merely panting. "H'risnth does seem to favor you."
"In that case, so do most of the rulers of all the other kingdoms," I sighed. " Kistrechiha sent me a tapestry. Very impressive and very blatant."
"Saaa," he hissed. "The price we pay."
"Your sympathy is underwhelming."
He chittered as I caught up my gear then fell in alongside as we headed on down through the grove of bent old windbreak trees to the lakeshore.
"What about those mills you're putting up over there," he asked, pointing along the waterfront.
"Still got a lot of work to do," I said. "It's tricky. Get a good storm and they'll tear themselves apart. There're ways of designing the blades so they don't spin too fast and that's the hard part."
"Huhn," he mused and I saw his jaw drop a little. It was like that unfocused look a sort of human tends to get when they devote too much processor time to a problem. Chaeitch was that sort of Rris. He'd go after a problem like a terrier after a rabbit. But he blinked out of it. "And all those copper wires you're playing around with? Eserisity?"
"Electricity," I corrected.
"You're going to have to find something else to call it," he hissed as we dropped down the storm-eroded embankment onto the stone beach. The water I'd once known as Lake Eerie slap-slapped onto the sun warm stones, a terminator of dark wet rocks marking the waterline. Chaeitch just dabbled his feet and hands. I shucked my moccasins and dove right in.
No ozone depletion. No industrial dumping, no nonbiodegradable litter, no pollution - save the biological runoff from a city of half a million Rris a few kilometers away. I was pretty sure the lake could handle that. At least that's what I told myself.
But it was clean and cold and got that sweat out of my eyes. Chaeitch tossed pebbles at a bobbing stick and watched in amusement as I ducked and dove for a while. Rris aren't great swimming enthusiasts. The last one I'd tried to teach to swim...
I floated in memories for a few minutes before wading out.
"Half ape, half fish," Chaeitch said and skipped a stone while I pulled my footwear on again. "How are those paintings going?" he asked.
"Slowly," I said. "The paints are difficult to use. I might have to stick to charcoal for a while." They were a pain. More temperamental than egg tempera and they had to be made up from scratch. No handy tubes of Winsor and Newton guache here.
"A? You know Rraerch and Rasa are interested? They liked those other portraits you did. You could be starting another fad. Hai, speaking of which, there's another play at the Resound."
"Not... one of those?"
I slapped a hand over my eyes and moaned, "Oh, Christ, not another one."
He cocked his head and chittered a laugh. The breeze off the lake was cool but the sun was hot enough to roast the worst of the water from me and my shorts while we wandered back down the beach to the house. Days off here tended to be very slow and filled with nothing in particular, which we discussed at great length as we headed back home.
It was a nice place. It was a damn sight larger than anything I could have afforded back home. Set back from the lakeshore behind a windbreak of aged conifers, it was a rambling two-story construction of dark weatherboards, slates, towers and garrets with attic rooms and windows in the oddest places. It was big, but it didn't have any of the modern amenities and it'd been built to accommodate Rris stature, which tended to the small side. I'd already got carpenters in to make modifications including raising ceilings and doorways so I wouldn't concuss myself. There was hot water and central heating and insulation. Hopefully, sometime soon, there'd also be electric lighting. Candles and oil and gas lamps are atmospheric, but the novelty quickly palls.
There were two Rris waiting for us on the back verandah. Tichirik was standing in her ramrod straight, perfectly groomed posture with a neatly-folded change of clothes in her arms and water on the table. Impeccable timing as usual. She was the household major domo cum butler. She managed the rest of the household servants and seemed to always be there when I needed her. She was damn good at her job and doubtless a government spy. I was pretty sure that nothing went on in that house that wasn't reported to an office somewhere in the Palace.
The adolescent Rris with her wore the tunic of a palace messenger and a flustered expression. He stared at me.
"And I thought cell phones were bad," I sighed to Chaeitch. "Now what?"
"Sirs," Tich greeted us. "I trust you had a good constitutional."
"Very good, thank you," I smiled as I accepted the fresh clothes. Chaeitch made a noncommittal grunting sound. "What's this about?" I gestured at the page who was still staring.
His ears went flat , but he stepped forward. "Sir... a message from the palace. It's is important. His highness requests your presence at your earliest convenience."
"Translation: now," I rolled my eyes. "Chaeitch, I'm sorry, but that drink's going to have to wait." "All that running for nothing?!" Chaeitch moaned. "All right, you incorrigible alcoholic. We should be able to find something. Tich, there was that bottle opened last night." I really don't know if that corruption of her name annoyed Tichirik. If it did, she didn't bat an eye; just said, "Of course, Sir."
The carriage waiting for me was from the Palace. It was an elegant affair: a closed cab riding on four iron-bound, wood-spoked wheels on leaf suspension. Intricate designs were carved into the wooden exterior panels while the brass fittings for lamps and handles were polished to a high gleam. With the Rris driver in his tooled leather tunic high on the drivers bench and the two elk in the traceries, the whole thing looked like something from a gothic fairy tale. I still get those moments where a sight like that clashes my mental gears.
The trip through a Shattered Water lazing under a summer heat was another sort of trip. Cobbles rattled under the iron wheels as we skirted outlaying fringes of the city. Passing by the smaller buildings and houses with their blank facades and shadowy tunnels leading through to the central atrium; the cheaper buildings with tilted walls that were peeling whitewash over wattle and daub; glassless windows; roofing tiles that were wood rather than ceramic; patches of grass growing high in gutterings where airborne seeds had taken root. Small markets clotted in open areas among the cities arterial streets, clusters of awnings and shades where smoky fires burned, Rris voices hissed and snarled and the smells of foods and chemicals etched the air.
Further in toward the heart of the city, where the buildings were larger and built of stone and mortar and brick. Several stories high, with painted woodwork and murals and shiny metal plaques on the walls of the guild halls. Glass glittered in narrow windows and elegantly dressed Rris went about their business. The roads became avenues, cutting in toward the hub of the central square with its fountains and trees. From there it was north along the shaded avenue, past the old remains of the curtain wall, through the upmarket section of the Rock - or the Nipple. It depended on which side of the poverty line you were standing.
Surrounding the Palace grounds was a black wrought-iron fence with gilded spiked fanciness adorning the top. The cleared ground on either side was a new addition following some security breaches. Inside that, the grounds were expansive, with forests and wild meadows and streams leading off to the lakeshore to the west. The Palace itself lounged amidst that: huge and sprawling, an edifice of thousands of rooms and halls that was to Rris architecture what Versailles is to humans.
The fa‡ade was a barrage of windows and glass, hundreds of them gleaming as the sun caught them just right. Walls of pale stone blocks were sectioned by columns rising to frescoes gables supporting a copper roof painted green by the elements. It was a construction that spoke of elegance and dignity and a refinement beyond the brute bulk of a fortress. But it didn't speak it with a human tongue.
It was the same sensation I get when looking at Rris artwork. Their golden ratio isn't the human one. Their pleasing proportions aren't the same as mine. They don't even perceive the world in the same way or through the same equipment. The architect had used numbers and alignments that just seemed ever so subtly wrong to my eyes.
As did the wild lawns and meadows where a profusion of grasses grew knee-high. The grounds were all carefully tended, they just didn't look it.
The oak avenue of the driveway swept up to a gravel loop at the front steps. The main doors did look like they belonged on a fortress - it turns out that's exactly where they came from. Of course the guards stared as they always did, but by now they were accustomed enough to my presence to just watch me. Just inside the doors Kh'hitch of Woodmaker, king's liason and personal dogsbody was waiting. All of him. He still hadn't lost any weight. He always reminded me of a snooty plush toy dressed by a mad tailor with a penchant for bloused clothes and bright colors.
He was good at his job though.
"Mikah, you're wet," he sniffed, looking me up and down. "And you could have dressed."
"I don't spend my days off sitting around in my finery waiting for a call from you," I said pointedly. "I was under the impression this was important?"
"Huhn," he huffed. "His highness wishes to speak with you."
"Mikah," he warned.
"Why, Kh'hitch, your nostrils are flaring."
He took a deep breath then turned and led the way. Unnecessary, I knew it well enough by then.
The Palace was as impressive on the inside as it was on the outside. But then, it was designed to be. The commonly traveled routes, those seen by outsiders, were elegant in the extreme. There were chandeliers and artworks of all sorts including indoor windchimes of crystal I couldn't hear and wood carvings that were supposed to carry ancient scents I couldn't smell. Paintings of landscapes and portraits were displayed in frames far more subdued than the gilt rococo monstrosities human artists seem so enamoured of. Walls were papered in fine embossed velvet or satin in different hues and textures; floors inlaid with parquetry made from individual splinters of wood.
Less traveled routes were merely elegant.
My moccasins were almost soundless against the floor while Rris footsteps tended to clatter slightly as claws ticked against the floor. At least while I was around they tended to.
There were always guards around the King's offices. They were wearing leather armor and polished ceremonial breastplates, and I couldn't help but notice they still carried the old flintlocks and edged weapons. I supposed the Land-of-Water Rris were still sensitive enough about the leakage of arms information to outside countries that they kept the more advanced weapons under wraps. Who guarded the guards? Huhn.
The king's office had always struck me as odd. It was a huge, white room in the southeastern corner of the east wing. Almost all the room was white stone save for the desk on the patch of carpet over in the far corner. The french windows along the outer walls provided a great view of the Palace grounds, as well as a breeze. That room might have been cool in summer, but in winter it was frigid. At least to my sensibilities it was. Yet another example of how a species needs dictates its design requirements.
The figure was seated at the low desk, bent over scribbling smoothly with a fountain pen. Kh'hitch just left me standing there and retreated quietly, closing the double doors behind him.
I strolled over to the desk and stood waiting for about a minute while the Rris king finished the page, blotted the ink, then folded the paper and sealed it with wax. Then Hirht sat back on his cushion and cocked his head at me. "Hello, Mikah."
"You paged me?"
"I sent for you, if that's what you mean. Yes. I'm sorry to disturb you on your day off. You were running again?"
"I heard you've dragged ah Ties into it?"
Now, how had he heard that? "I had to threaten him with wine."
He smiled. "At least you're in one of your good moods. There are a few things I want to talk to you about. You know that there have been frictions with more than a few of our neighbors. There have been claims that we are 'monopolizing a unique asset'. Some of them are becoming quite <something> in their protests."
I frowned. "I'm sorry, Sir. I don't know that word... hesira..."
"Hesirethir'k," he gestured. "Loud, continual, outspoken."
Oh. Vociferous. "I understand."
"You understand that that sort of situation is dangerous for all involved? Especially you."
"Yes, sir," I sighed. It wasn't an entirely new situation. It was something that tended to ebb and flow. Other Powers' protests would get louder and louder and Land-of-Water would have to make placating gestures. "What are you doing to keep them happy?"
"Oh, not us," he smiled.
I hesitated. "Why do I get the feeling I'm not going to like this?"
He gave a dismissive wave. "It's really not so bad. You were always wanting to see more of the world, so we're giving you a chance. You're going to visit a neighboring kingdom as a gesture of goodwill."
His ears flicked like someone had blown into them. "How did you know?"
"Lucky guess." I probably shouldn't have given that away. It was a pretty obvious choice though: an influential country, nearby, an already amicable relationship and doubtless Land-of-Water was looking for a allies they could call on if other Realms started putting diplomatic pressure on them. Cover-my-Tail was a prime candidate.
"Huhn," he looked at me curiously. "Good guess. Yes. You will be guests of H'risnth for a while. She has graciously agreed to accommodate you while you discuss business. There will of course be a pre-drawn agenda."
"'Guests'," I noticed. "Plural."
"Ah Ties and aesh Smither will be accompanying you. They're both quite used to handling you. Ah Ties has logistical details to negotiate and we decided that aesh Smither will be a good tutor for you. There are some matters we think it would not be.... ah.... politic for you to discuss."
"Ah. You don't want me selling them plans for a hydrogen bomb?"
I saw muscles in his face lock as he forced his ears to stand still. "That would be of use to them?"
"Very limited use."
"Ah," his amber eyes stared at my face, his head twitching as he seemed to try and read me. "You know this is a very serious matter."
"It always seems to be," I sighed. "You are on friendly terms with Cover-my-Tail? This isn't going to degrade into some political fiasco?"
"Very friendly terms," he stood and turned to gaze out a window at the palace grounds. There were fields of long grass out there, rippling in the breeze. "But you still seem to have a knack for finding trouble. Mikah, this is a simple trip. It's an easy boat trip and then a straight-line talk with their highborn."
He turned to face me, clasping his hands behind his back. "You've met Lady H'risnth before. You got along together. She said she finds you quite fascinating, so if you're polite and careful there should be no problems."
"And how are the other kingdoms going to feel about this?"
Again he looked a little surprised. "They'll see that you're not just working for us."
"So they'll be expecting me to go on more trips. Will I?"
"That remains to be seen. This is a test case."
I nodded. "And how long will this take?"
"We've allocated three weeks. Three days there at the outside, with leeway for bad weather. Two weeks minimum there and then three days back." That wasn't unexpected. Travel time here is a great deal slower than back home.
"And I leave?"
"Day after tomorrow," he said.
"Short notice." But then I didn't have a great deal to pack. "You've been planning this for a while. You could have told me earlier."
"Things have only just been... arranged," he said. "There was a great deal of negotiation over time spans and access rights. Mikah, you do make this job interesting. Now there was one other thing."
He stepped forward and stopped just in front of me, looking up and cocking his head slowly and then abruptly grinned. I flinched at the imitation of my smile which was a threatening gesture to the Rris. "None of that," he said, smoothing his muzzle out. "You know it causes problems. Just be careful and behave. Thank you."
That was all. Kh'hitch collected me from the antechamber outside the doors and took me to his office. There he spent the next three hours going over my itinerary and travel arrangements in a great deal more detail.
For the past few months my life in Shattered Water had been pretty quiet and I certainly wasn't complaining. Since I'd arrive there I'd had enough excitement to last three lifetimes. I'd seen murder, assassination attempts, kidnappings, threats, fights and poisonings. My body was a roadmap of scars and knots of tissue where hostile Rris claws had torn at me. Not only hostile: some of the pale marks across my back were a legacy of my first Rris lover.
That's still a painful memory.
Things had quietened considerably over the past couple of months. I'd taken the opportunity to try and get my new life in order. I'd brought the house by the lakeside. I'd been able to absorb myself in my work. In retrospect, I'd been aware of the simmering undercurrents of politics, but I'd just been telling myself they'd keep to themselves. Of course they'd boil over again.
My work was essentially a transfer of knowledge. The information I held in my head and in my laptop might have been fairly mundane by my standards, but to the Rris they were immensely valuable. There were technologies, techniques and materials they'd never dreamt of before. In the months since I'd been here their steam engine technologies had rocketed from basic single expansion to triple-expansion engines built using alloys non-existent not so long ago. They were harvesting crops using automated reapers.
And their weapons had undergone radical changes as well.
Just because they're not as educated, doesn't mean they're stupid. A lot of Rris are a good deal more intelligent than I am. They managed to get weapons information from my laptop by hit-and-miss techniques, simply copying the shapes of words and letters.
Despite firewalls and PGP encryption, my system's cracked by pre- electrical alien cats who can't even speak English.
It was information a lot of parties would kill for. In fact, some did. They threatened me, they threatened Chihirae. It wasn't a state I had any wish to return to. If the politcal winds were picking up again, I was all for casting some oil on the waters.
My carriage was waiting for me as I stepped out onto the front steps of the palace. The sun was high in a brilliant sky, coaxing heat- shimmers from the gravel drive. Insects buzzed and razzed in the meadows of golden grass that rippled like an ocean sunset as a breeze set the stalks to swaying. There was a courier message waiting for me: my driver relayed the essentials to me in a carefully impartial voice. So, I couldn't read. I was learning, but it took time.
It was from Rraerch aesh Smither. The owner of the largest industrial firm in Land-of-Water and the Government's principal shipyard contractor. She was also Chaeitch's original sponsor and an old acquaintance of mine. She was requesting an immediate meeting with me at her offices in town. I didn't need the driver's translation to know what this meeting was going to be about.
So much for my day off.
Shattered Water is always an experience. Any large Rris town is. It's one thing to look out from the relative aloofness of a carriage rattling through the streets, it's quite another to get out and walk around those streets. It's a town where humans have never even been conceived of, built entirely on alien needs and desires. Form still follows function, so there are similarities. The roofs need to be sloped to keep the rain off; there are windows and doors; the streets are paved; vehicles have wheels and cabs. But all the things that should be familiar all have subtle nuances that just seem wrong to my senses. The architecture is built for inhabitants with smaller statures, so the doors are too small; there are few windows on exterior walls; proportion and ornamentation are designed for inhuman sensibilities. And then there're the crowds of furry bipedal cats all turning to stare at me. It's a feeling that's hard to describe: like stage fright mixed with a disturbing primal sensation as the ancient ape sees the predators' interest. I thought it was something I could get used to, but that doesn't seem to be the case. Now all I can do is fight it down. It's a sensation I feel all to often as I go about my business. I felt it when I got out of the carriage in the courtyard of Smither Industries. It was a complex of brick buildings with dark slate roofs. As with so much Rris architecture the complex turned blank brick faces to the outside world, broken only by the merest slits of windows. Arched passages led through the outer walls to the central courtyards and the planted gardens there; the huge windows glazed with panes of new glass. As I got out of the carriage I could see Rris around the courtyard stopping and looking my way. Even up in the windows curious feline faces appeared. I ignored them as best I could and headed over to where my guide was waiting. I'd been there over a dozen times and he still looked nervous. The halls of Smither Industries were busy places. There were Rris scurrying around with that odd little scattering sound their claws make on hard floors. On the main staircase they hastily stepped aside as I made my way up to the third floor. Rraerch's offices were elegant, in Rris style. The floors were tiled in tan and gold, the walls paneled in light pine and white plaster. On either side of the office doors were two pieces of what I might normally have considered driftwood. Apparently they were works of art, imbued with scents from distant lands. All utterly undetectable to me. Rraerch's secretary was at work at his low desk. He looked up as I approached and his ears went back flat against his skull. He'd always been civil toward me, but his ears had always done that: a reflexive Rris anxiety reaction. "Sir," he greeted me, "she's expecting you." "Thank you," I said. "I know the way." The Rris seated at the low desk turned two pairs of amber eyes my way as I stepped through the door to the inner office. "Mikah," Rraerch greeted me. "You made good time. Sorry to do this to you on your free time." "Not your fault," I said and glared at the other Rris. "Chaetich, thanks a lot. You could have told me." He tipped his hand in a shrug. "I really didn't know. I was preparing for a trip over to Cover-my-Tail and suddenly I'm told it's grown into something a good deal more than a property inspection deal." I took a cushion at the desk: on of those uncomfortably low tables the Rris favor. They find them quite suited to their needs, but I find the experience of sitting on a cushion on the floor at a knee-high table uncomfortable, physically and psychologically. In a human office the desk is a symbol of power and entrenched authority. I suppose the Rris use them in the same way: someone sitting on a low cushion is at a distinct disadvantage when someone's standing. At least you could count on Rraerch having good alcohol handy. I was actually growing quite partial to some Rris wines, and Rraerch had a bottle in a wicker basket sitting on the desk alongside an imposing stack of books.
"So," I said as I settled myself, "what's the deal here? You're all suddenly very keen to shift me over to Cover-my-tail."
Rraerch snorted, wrinkling her salt-and-pepper speckled muzzle and narrowing her yellow-amber eyes. "It's simply a friendship visit."
"Oh? Nothing to do with forging alliances against possible political unrest and economic sanctions?"
She hesitated then blinked. "Hirht told you that?"
"Not in so many words."
"Huhn," she glanced at Chaeitch. I suppose the lack of phones was something that worked to my advantage in cases like that. Hirht couldn't simply call her up and discuss our meeting. "I think you're being a bit paranoid, Mikah. It's a friendship visit. It'll show that Cover-my-Tail and other countries that we aren't monopolizing you. And you'll get a chance to see some more of the world."
Okay. So they didn't have phones, But that didn't mean they couldn't work out their spiel beforehand.
She rolled her glass between stubby fingers and looked up at me. "You could simply refuse to go. We wouldn't coerce you, but it would make things difficult. There's a lot of pressure from other countries for us to... to give them greater access to you. This would pop the valve on that pressure for a while."
"Okay," I nodded. "I'm not against this. It's just very sudden."
"There wasn't a great deal of time to consult you about it," she said. "It's an easy journey. Water all the way."
That certainly beat a land journey, which would have been days of slow, bumpy travel in carriages. "He said the two of you are going along. You're supposed to be... tutoring me?"
"Huhn," now her ears went down. "That. Yes, well, we've had a lot of dealings with Cover-my-Tail. His highness feels that we are the best ones to cram as much information into you about Cover-my-Tail as possible. Their geography, history, trade and exports."
"And about the good Lady herself," Chaeitch sighed.
"She's trouble?" I asked. "I've met her, she seemed pleasant enough."
"She's a very pleasant person," Rraerch said. "She's personable, charming, intelligent, and a damned astute business dealer. That's the problem. She could buy your hide off your back and sell it before you even noticed. That's what his highness wants me to caution you about. I've had experience dealing with her and I know some of her games, so I can tell you what to watch for."
"How long's that going to take?"
She slapped a furry hand down on that stack of books on the desk. "We don't have long enough, so I'll have to give you the condensed version."
I winced. Chaeitch clambered to his feet. "It's going to be a long night."
A bright three-quarter moon hung low in the velvet sky, casting a cold monochromatic glow across the world. The slats in the carriage window cut that moonglow into bars of shadow and light that fell across the floor and my legs, shifting and juddering as the carriage clattered through the nightbound streets.
I just sat back in the upholstered seat and closed my eyes, my head still swimming with facts and figures that'd been pumped into me for the past seven hours. Things I hadn't known, things I'd never wanted to know... the capital was Open Fields; the population was about three hundred and seventy thousand; main exports were coal and iron ore - essential for developing industry; ruling lineage was the Esrisa family since the Wall wars one hundred and forty years ago; there were extensive vineyards along the central river valleys; Reli district specialized in expensive inks... and on and on.
At least I knew more about Open Fields than I had known about Shattered Water when I first arrived. And I'd be going in as a guest rather than a curiosity. The itinerary had been planned out and from what I'd seen it did seem to be a predominantly goodwill visit. I had met her Ladyship before and she was a pleasant enough individual. In fact, I quite liked her. We'd gotten on well. Although, after what I'd been told that night I had to wonder how much of that was good salesmanship.
The motion of the carriage changed: slowing, turning. The clatter of iron-bound wheels on cobblestones turned to the muted crunch of gravel and we stopped. I heard muted voices and the door was opened.
"Squad Leader," I said tiredly, not bothering to look around.
"Sir," the Rris gate guard acknowledged and closed the door again. I had a house of my own, but it came along with a small army of guards. Necessary, I supposed. At least they kept the curiosity seekers from staring in the windows. Gravel scrunched under the wheels as we started up the drive toward the house.
"Here, sir," I heard the driver say from up on the bench. I sighed and clambered out, bidding him goodnight and heading for the front door. Behind me the carriage headed off toward the stables.
Home again. The lights were on in the living area and up on the second floor, glowing a welcoming orange against the almost indistinguishable blueblack of the night sky. As I stepped up onto the front porch the front door swung open, throwing a fan of light out and silhouetting the alien form of a Rris.
"Good evening, sir," she greeted me. "I trust it was a productive day?"
"Productive, yes," I said, handing my coat over. "And very long. Some warning about these things would be nice."
"Yes, sir," she said neutrally as she hung my coat in the closet and turned back to me. "You sound tired. Do you wish to eat?"
I was hungry. "Food would be good," I said. "
"Yes, sir," the major domo said. "It will be ready shortly."
"Nothing fancy," I said. "You've already eaten?"
"Ah, yes, sir. Ah, her Ladyship has. She wasn't sure what time you'd be home."
"Just reheat leftovers," I said and she ducked her head, headed back toward the kitchens. I sighed and made my way through to the living room. It was deserted, the low cushions and tables where we could receive guests in the Rris idea of comfortempty, but there was a light on through in the study. It was a decent sized room lined with bookshelves. Mostly bare: my grasp of the Rris written language was still rudimentary so the only books I could handle were the rare and expensive primers and cubs' books. The desk had been built to my specifications which included a decent size with a good chair. Now there was a Rris figure curled up in the chair, engrossed in a book while the oil lamp on the desk burned low. As I stepped in the door her ears flickered and she looked around.
"Good evening, your Ladyship," I smiled.
"Huh," Chihirae arched one leg out, her odd digitigrade foot held trembling for a muscle-stretching second, then the other. "I wish she wouldn't call me that."
"But it suits you?"
She chittered and then rolled her shoulders. "How do you stand these contraptions? It puts knots right up my tail and back."
"I should get some cushions," I said, touching her shoulders. Her fur was slightly coarse on the outside with the finer fell deeper in. Feeling so strange when I started kneading: the thick hide feeling like it was sliding over the bunched muscles beneath. She sighed and her head sagged forward.
"Huhnnn," she rumbled. "You're late home."
"Been one of those days."
"What da... ah... Sa, I see. Ah, lower... there. Hnnn. What do they want now?"
I told her.
Chihirae. She was the first Rris I ever truly met. She was a schoolteacher from the town of Lying scales who'd been working at the rural community of Westwater when I'd arrived in this world. She'd been the one I'd first approached for help. Actually, she'd shot me, nearly killed me, then saved my life and defended me from villagers convinced I was a murderer.
Long and complicated story.
She was a friend. A good friend. We were lovers.
Or rather I was. Rris don't love. They can't. They don't have the hardwiring to form such connections. That's not to say they don't form friendships and affections, they just don't feel that surge we interpret as love. The only way I can describe what they feel is to use synonyms and similies, comparing them to things in the human experience. It's not nearly accurate, but it's all I can do. I understood the differences, but it was one thing to understand them and an entirely different matter to be make my body feel it. My hardwiring, the way my body and ape ancestry processed emotions, was continually undermining that knowledge.
It had caused me serious grief in the past. It would do so again.
So I loved her. And for her I was a friend, someone she knew in a new town, a current sexual partner. There would come a time when she would leave. I knew that. I didn't want to think about that.
"A busy day off," she husked when I'd finished. She was limp under my hands now, a low, almost subsonic rumble coming from her chest. Not quite a purr, but that was the best reference I had.
"And how was your class?"
"Milk froth cubs," she sighed. "They're more of a problem than usual ones."
"Attitude?" I asked.
"Ah," she confirmed. "'Specially the older ones."
"Hmmm," I chuckled. "Well, don't let it get to you." I leaned over and nuzzled the top of her head. "Your Ladyship."
Chihriae chittered her amusement. "I never thought anyone would be calling me that. I've asked her not to."
"Awww," I sympathized. "The things you have to live with."
"Hai," she mock-growled and craned her neck back, trying to nip at me. Relenting when I scratched behind her ears. "Huhn, you know how to make peace, don't you."
"I had to learn quickly," I said.
She chittered again and directed my hands to more needing spot. "So, how long is this trip supposed to be?"
"They said not more than a few weeks."
"You believe that?"
"When I see it," I said, moving down to scratch her shoulders, her ribs.
'Hai, Mikah!" she chittered and caught my hands. "Not now, you oversexed ape. I've got to get this done."
"Spoilsport," I murmured, trying not to grin.
She held my hands in her small ones for a second, turning them over, over again, staring and studying them as if she'd never seen them before. She traced a dark claw along one of the lines on my palm and then looked up to ask, "Have you eaten yet?"
"I was on my way."
"I'm sure cook can burn something for you," she craned her head back to purse her features into a Rris smile up at me.
"That was old the first time I heard it," I grumbled as I left her to get on with her work.
I had a dining room. It was another room with Rris furniture, centremost of which was a low, Rris-style table big and solid enough to land aircraft on. The cushions were tooled leather by a artisan whose works were quite in demand, so I was told.
I hated eating in there alone.
The food was something like stroganoff. Beef... unlikely. Buffalo stroganoff most probably. The cook, Segihis, was elderly and seemed to regard his employers as something of an amusement. But he was good and he was learning my tastes. Which meant not working with some of the more flavourful Rris spices, such as alkaloids like Nightshade.
Food helped. So did the shower afterwards. I leaned my head against the tiles and let near-scalding water sluice down across that tight spot between my shoulderblades. Damn, dealing with Rris was still exhausting. Reading them, interpreting the body language... I had to concentrate on that. I kept trying to interpret their signals as if they were coming from humans, and that was dangerous. A baring of teeth was not a smile; a shift into what might be a posture of interest in a human was a reaction to a perceived threat.
I'd known more than a few people back in that lost world who insisted on attributing human emotions to their pets. If I allowed myself to fall into that trap here it could mean trouble. Even with individuals I considered friends it was difficult to relax. There weren't many times when I could lower my guard so those quiet moments were all the more precious.
I yawned, flinched, then blinked. I'd been dozing off standing up. How long... the water was still hot so it couldn't have been too long. Yawning again, I rolled my shoulders and turned my face to the faucet, the blast helping to jolt me awake. I flipped the tap off and stepped out, wiping at the water streaming into my eyes and groping for the towel. As I scrubbed my face and hair dry another towel landed over my shoulders.
"Christ," I said to an amused Chihirae while my heart started again. "Haven't you ever seen Psycho?"
"If that's something from your world, then I probably haven't," she replied as she rubbed at my back, carefully working around the old tracks of scars there. "You were quite a while in here. I wanted to see if you were all right."
"You could have scratched."
"That wouldn't have been as fun," she chittered, then hesitated and circled me to laid her hand on my chest, where she could feel my heartbeat. "Hai," she murmured. "I really frightened you?"
"I wasn't expecting you," I said defensively.
Her ears went down. ""I'm sorry," she said. "I didn't mean it like that. You were just in here a long time."
"My fault," I smiled at her expression. "I nearly fell asleep."
"Under that thing? I just thought I should check on you." She tipped her head and stroked her hand across my wet skin, slicking the fur on her palm down as she traced fingertips across my chest, down lower... "You're that tired?"
"Ah..." I inhaled sharply, suddenly very awake. "I thought you didn't want to."
"I was busy," she rumbled and I could feel that vibration through her chest as she pressed against me, hugged against me. I could lay my chin on the top of her muzzle. "Not busy now. You too tired?"
"I don't know..." I broke off with another gasp.
"No," she laughed and squeezed again, "you're not. See? I can....Ahi! Put me down!"
"You roused the beast," I held her, pressing her back against the wall and grinned into her face. She slitted her eyes, wrapping legs around my waist, muscle and slightly coarse hide clenching me. "Here?" she breathed, looking uncertain.
No. Not there. Not then. That could have been... dangerous. For both of us. I nuzzled her, gently inhaling her dusty scent. Kissing... that also just wasn't possible. So many differences that the act wasn't something that could just happen, we had to be careful. I still had scars from... a painful memory.
The bedroom was dark. It was comfortable. It was a place where I could be close to her. I know I enjoyed it, that she got pleasure out of it, but it wasn't lovemaking for her. Not the same emotional trip I experienced.
And I knew that while I held her, she wasn't feeling what I did; what a human did. I could look into her eyes and what looked back wasn't something I could read. There was depth there, emotions and decisions I could never empathize with or fully comprehend; a soul staring back and trying in turn to read me.
Nevertheless, in the dark night, when the future was unseen and unsure, she was someone to hold to.
A high, thin overcast hung over the world, hiding the sun, turning it to a blushing pale pink orb on the horizon. The surface of the lake was rilled with wavelets, slapping against the breakwater and leaving the harbor behind molasses-smooth, stirring slightly with the motion of the river's currents. I could smell the memory of rain from the night before hanging in the still, cool air. Water still puddled on cobbles of the streets, of the flagstones of the docks, flicking from the iron-bound rims as the carriage rolled to a stop.
The entire carriage rocked on its leaf suspension as I climbed out and looked around at a dockside already bustling with activity. Behind us, guards were closing the wrought iron gates, a couple arguing with peddlers outside. Stevedores and workers were bustling about their businesses in the big workshops and boatsheds, and porters were already working at unloading gear from the back of the carriage. I shouldered my own duffel bag.
"They can take that," Chihirae almost sounded like she was chiding me as she dropped down beside me.
"I can manage it," I said. I preferred to carry my own gear. It just felt odd to have someone else carrying something I was quite capable of. Beside, there were things in that bag that were valuable. In a unique monetary way to Rris; in a unique sentimental way to me.
Chihirae twitched her ears then patted my arm. "You think you're ready for this?"
"Do you think they're ready for me?"
There was moment of surprise, then she laughed. "I don't think anyone can be really ready for you," she assured me.
I almost grinned and hastily caught myself. For a species that uses their teeth as weapon, a grin isn't a friendly gesture. But it's a damn difficult thing to unlearn. "It'll be interesting," I said.
"A, that's what concerns me."
I opened my mouth, then frowned. "I am capable of going somewhere and not causing trouble, you know."
"I've yet to see it," she said and touched my arm again, watching her own hand smoothing down the hair there and then looking up at me. "You will behave? You know your sense of humour is... odd. There are those who might not appreciate it."
"So I've been told."
"Mikah," she sighed and then ducked her head. "Just... don't make anyone too angry, a?"
"I'll try," I said, not sure whether to feel touched by her concern or stung by the lack of confidence. "It's only for a couple of weeks. And I'm finally going to see some more of your world." I adjusted my duffel and started off across the rain-slicked flagstones toward the wharf. Chihirae stalked along at my side in that smooth Rris walk, not even seeming to notice that the shallow puddles soaked the fur of her inhumanly-shaped feet. "Besides, I'll have my nursemaids."
Chihirae glanced over her shoulder at the guards following at a discreet distance and her muzzle pursed in amusement. "Ah. A couple of attractive females like that following you around. Why should I worry?"
"Oh? They're female?"
"You still can't tell?"
"Well... sometimes. I'm learning."
She flickered her ears and snorted. "A. That you are. I just find it remarkable that you know things most people've never dreamed of, yet some of the most basic things are beyond you."
I shrugged. "Sometimes... it's like learning to breathe all over again."
She was quiet for a few seconds, then said. "You are learning though. I have had worse pupils."
"Gee, thanks," I said. " Nothing to worry about. I'll bring you something."
"Umm... Uh." I already had a cellar full of their wine. I knew cover My Tail's main exports were coal, iron ore, lumber... great gift ideas. I know a Rris' idea of a present is somewhat different from the ones "I'll find something."
The wharf was one of the multitude of similar stone moorings jutting out into the river from the quayside. This one was a private mooring and part of the shipyards, with its own checkpoint and guards. They just stared at me and let us pass without challenge. I suppose I was pretty distinctive.
The single ship moored at this berth was the Ironheart. It wasn't the first Rris steam ship, but it was the first to be built incorporating a multitude of design innovations I'd introduced: new techniques in metallurgy, construction of engines, hull. Shortly after I'd arrived in Shattered Water I'd been assigned to Chaeitch, so he could see if what I knew could be put to practical use. We'd actually gotten along. And he was something of a genius when it came to working out how to actually implement an idea. The results were the Ironheart. It was a prototype, a showpiece, and it showed.
Tawny bodied bustled around the ship and wharf; a swarm of dockhands and crew working at loading, stowing, stocking, sanding, polishing and cleaning. The river water gently lapped at the thirty-meter hull, the laquered wood glistening like oil. Morning sunlight filtering through the town, rising above the shipyard roofs, turned brass fittings, porthole rims and the tops of the stacks to molten copper.
I noticed Chihirae's ears flick back, laying down against her skull for a second. She didn't like boats, I'd forgotten that. Was that why she was a little twitchy? In any case, her ears came up again when she saw the group clustered at the gangplank. There were several Rris there, all dressed in expensive-looking garb. The older female with the annoyed expression was Rraerch; the one with the smoking pipe in his mouth was Chaeitch; the one with the pale white leather waistcoat was Marasitha, the protocol officer and diplomat travelling with us; and the other two had the look of Palace officials about them.
One of the officials glanced up to see us walking toward them down the dock. He flinched, stepping back. The others looked at him in surprise. He snorted and pointed at us. Rraerch looked amused and Chaeitch's ears pricked up.
"Hi," I said in english. "Hope we're not late. She's terrible about oversleeping."
"Hai," Chihirae yipped. "I had to drag you out of bed!"
"Was that it? I knew it was one of us."
The officials looked taken aback by that but Chaeitch bobbed his head and seemed amused; by us or by their reaction? "You're in good time," he said. "We've got a few minutes."
"Good," I said, brushing past them. "I'll be right with you."
"Mikah..." Marasitha caught me. "We've still got things to discuss."
"What? We'd spent the day before, the entire day, going over what I should and shouldn't say. "I thought we'd done with that."
"There're still a few points..."
"Later," I interrupted, holding my hand up. "Later."
He stopped, laying his ears back. I moved past him, ignoring the others as I stepped up to the diminutive female. She blinked up at me. 'I'll see you later, a?" I said. "I'll be careful."
"Cross my heart and hope... I promise."
Alien hands laid on my chest and claws poked through my shirt, pricking my skin as Chihirae leaned in close. "I'll hold you to that," she growled.
I hugged her, feeling the warmth of warm fur, the compact muscle beneath as I touched my lips to the bridge of her muzzle. "Anyone gives you any trouble, just let me know."
"I can take care of myself," she chided.
"And I can't?"
She reached up and stroked my face, my beard. I hated the damn thing, but she'd insisted; had hated the thought of me shaving. A lot of them had. I'd compromised: I kept the beard, but trimmed it back to a length that didn't leave me looking like the lost mariner. "Mikah, you... I'd hate to lose you."
I hugged her again, ignoring the other aliens staring at us.
Waves slapped against the bow as the ship left the still water of the harbour breakwater. Through the hull I felt the engines step up a notch, the slow pulse beating a bit faster as the Ironheart turned into the wind. From the rail I watched the docks recede and vanish from sight behind the harbour wall, taking with them the sight of the small figure standing there.
She'd been brought to Shattered Water by someone else I'd known. She'd come not entirely of her own free will and she stayed out of friendship to me. The bonds Rris feel to one another, male female relationships, are nothing like human ones. There are strong emotions during the spring, the time of the female heat, but otherwise... they don't feel the emotional bonding that human couples do. It seems odd to me, cold in some ways, but then my Rris friends can't understand my attachments.
'I need to need', someone once told me. She was right: I formed close bonds, affections, relations, whether it was prudent or not. Someone else had warned me against that, how it could be used against me.
So while I loved her, she couldn't reciprocate. It wasn't a loss on their part: they certainly felt other things I never could, but I knew it meant that if she wanted to leave, there was nothing holding her here.
I really hoped she'd be there when I got back.
The world warmed as the sun climbed higher. The pale overcast burned away, turned the sky from the milky gray to a cutting turquoise blue. On the far distant horizon, stacks of white clouds clambered and climbed into the sky, like insubstantial parapets of the gods. The sun was hot on my shoulders; the wind blowing off the lake cool and smelling of water. A gull swooped along after us for a while, then soared off into the distance. From my perch out of the way on the cabin roof I could see the distant lakeshore passing right on the edge of view: kilometer upon kilometer of wilderness, an occasional rooftop or curl of smoke in the trees, an occasional little jetty, but otherwise untouched.
Marasitha spent a couple of hours doing last second updates to my briefings. He sat out on the deck, shuffling papers from his valise, pinning them as the wind tried to steal them. He was a busy little Rris, shorter than most and put him a head shorter than me. I always got the impression he should be wearing a suit and bowler. There were lists of things I should discuss, subjects I should avoid, backgrounds on various nobility and guild leaders I'd be meeting... on top of all the other stuff I'd crammed in over the past couple of days it all started to run together. At least it was only some late-incoming information that they only just had a chance to get to me, so it was only a couple of hours.
Shadows grew shorter as the sun and the temperature climbed. The air just above the deck hazed almost imperceptibly, like the heat shimmer above an Arizona road. I suspect that was the main reason that the panting Marasitha claimed that we'd finished and headed belowdecks where it was cooler. At least I had the option of shucking my heavy Rris-made shirt. I laid back on the cabin roof, squinting at the azure sky through human sunglasses and ignoring the open stares of the crew. I don't know if it was my bare hide or the scars that made them lay their ears back.
Damn, was it really necessary that I cram all that information? Some of it might be useful, but a lot of it was simply dross. Who said that knowledge is power? I didn't feel all that powerful, just a little dazed from trying to absorb all that. The Open Fields printing guildmaster had had a falling out with the master of forestries; there were new books in the embassy; an advisor's daughter was baring the child of a lamp oil merchant... did I need to know that?
A rustle of cloth on fur beside me. "It is necessary, I'm afraid" Chaeitch said, settling down on the sun-warmed wood beside me. In the brilliant glare of the midday sun on the water his eyes were the merest slits of black in amber.
I sat up again, rolling my shoulders. "It just seems a ridiculous sometimes."
"Politics," he replied.
"A," I said. "That's what I said."
I heard him chitter.
"What was that about this morning?" I asked.
"Those others on the dock. They were from the Palace? They didn't look very happy."
"Oh, there were some details about your guard. It was resolved."
"Not to their satisfaction, apparently," I smiled.
Out of the corner of my eye I saw him look at me. "You shouldn't take so much pleasure in making trouble for the Palace," he said reproachfully.
"I take my entertainment where I can find it," I smiled.
"Ah," I saw him tip his head back, grimacing at the sun overhead. "I think Chihirae's rightly concerned about you. Can I ask you a question about you and her?"
"The sex with her, is it like that with females of your kind?"
I blinked and hesitated again. He and Chihirae... I'd walked in on them. Litaral coitus interruptus. I knew that it'd been the time of year, that what was between them was nothing like a human relationship, but that ancient ape in my hindbrain insisted on screeching at what it interpreted as competition. I knew that was utterly ridiculous. They were both Rris, they belonged together. I was the odd one out and I was jealous of that.
Who ever said instincts are logical?
Why was he asking? He was a Rris male. Without a female in season, without those scents, for arousal, sex was just an abstract concept to him. He couldn't get off by thinking about it, looking at dirty pictures or even a shapely female with a great tail. He wouldn't be thinking about their relationship at all.
"Why are you asking?"
He wagged his hand in a shrug. "I was curious." He blinked amber eyes at me. "She said sex with you is quite an experience. I was wondering if it was the same sort of experience you got with your own kind."
"Oh," I rocked back, thinking that one over. "That's... difficult."
'It's not the same?"
"She's not... " putting it into words was difficult. And embarrassing. "The feelings are different. She doesn't... it's not like a human female. She's not human. I mean everything; her feel, her scent, her... inside her... it's different. I mean, it's the same, it does the same thing, but it all feels so different."
"You don't like that?"
I suddenly wanted a stiff drink. "I don't know. I... In some ways, it's... it's frightening: we have to be careful. She... her claws and teeth... she forgets them sometimes. And I'm different enough... it can be uncomfortable for her if I'm not careful. " I sighed and looked down at my hands and then at the Rris. "It's... frightening, confusing, exhausting... And it's fun, reassuring, and it's... arousing."
His muzzled wrinkled in confusion. That word, arouse, didn't translate properly. Rather, it translated but I had to use it out of its usual context. "It's more than just the time of year for me," I reminded him.
"Ah," Chaeitch he said dubiously, not sounding entirely enlightened. "She said. You can be aroused by just thinking about sex, or when she touches you. She said in the night you get erections and..."
"Thank you," I interrupted and he blinked amber eyes, then flicked his ears in amusement. "Hai, this makes you uncomfortable?"
"I went through enough of it with the physicians," I said. "How much did she tell you?"
Now his amusement faltered as he realised that this was another area in which my attitudes differed from the ones to which he was accustomed. "You...didn't want her to say anything, did you."
I did a brief estimation, then raked my fingers through my overgrown hair. "That much, a?" I sighed.
"Sorry," he looked uncertain. "I didn't know she wasn't supposed to discuss it."
And thinking back on it, I'd never asked her not to. I'd just assumed...
I shook my head. "I never said anything to her. I just never thought she would."
"Ah," he said. For a while he just sat there, staring at the glittering water. The breeze ruffled through his fur, setting it rippling like golden fields. He'd been shedding, but it still must've been hot. "You don't discuss other mates?"
"Not...usually. You obviously do."
"Sometimes. But you're quite exceptional. I was curious."
"I... see. She answered your questions?"
"Hai, yes," his tongue lolled in a Rris leer. "I see why you're so popular with them."
I reached around to rub at a heat that wasn't sunlight climbing up my neck. "Wonderful," I muttered. "Chaeitch, I'm trying to keep that..."
"I know. Don't worry. I haven't published yet."
"That was a joke," he said reproachfully.
"Oh. Thank you."
"You do enjoy her, though, don't you."
In a word: "Yes."
"But your kind... you mate for life? One pair? You're quite...protective of her."
That set off alarm bells. This wasn't just a casual talk stemming from curiosity about an alien's sex life. He was beating around some kind of bush. He'd discussed my sexual habits with Chihirae, that could also mean they'd talked about other things. Like my feelings. Like how I'd felt when I'd walked in on them doing the beast with two backs.
"Are you worried that I'm angry at you? Because of your... relationship with her."
His ears flicked, just enough to tell me that I'd scored. "You did seem upset."
"That was some time ago," I remembered. It'd shocked me, it'd hurt me, but it was completely right. "No. I was being stupid. Being human. You... I won't stand in your way. I won't interfere."
"But how would you feel about it?"
I swallowed. "I can't help that," I said. "But it's best for her. I can't offer her what you can."
"You wouldn't be angry."
"Chaeitch, if I was going to hurt you, it'd have to be for a damned good reason, and that isn't it."
"Thank you," he said. "I think."